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Life After Cancer: The Fascination Continues.

Overwhelming silence has kept me from speaking to y’all. My healing has become quite personal. Yet everything I have experienced, it resonates with all of you. Challenges of being Human has become foreign in our lifestyle. We strive to advance, yet our foundation is compromised.

I have no complete thoughts for you, except everything that you see, hear, touch and are experiencing is exactly how I have imagined it. Not in minute details but in the grand scheme of things, it is happening before my eyes. Most of the pain and suffering (aka learning curve) is happening and redemption is near. I know there are others who feel exactly how I do.

With this information at hand, I want to challenge you for the next 26-30 days (Official start date is Dec. 31st) to help uplift Humanity. I have a mantra that I use daily and when I feel ‘troubled.’ It’s as follows:

Light, Light, come to me.
Come to me and Shine through me.

In less than a month of doing this, I have felt an overwhelming sense of peace & calm I have not felt in ages. Put your skepticism on the shelf and do this. Please share and comment to participate.  Your feedback throughout this challenge is much appreciated.

It’s said an individual can make a difference; Let’s make it happen.

Blessed Be, y’all

50%. I Roll Like That.

50%. That was the results from the biopsy; 50% Lymphoma.

I will not lie to you, I cried. I had underestimated the degree of NHL left over in me. When I had my last chemotherapy back in July 2011, I figured I was not completely out in the clear–20%, to be exact. This may be the realist in me; not all things are packaged neat and tidy. The part which made me cry the most was knowing I would be weak, tired and even more so, semi-conscious of my surroundings. Not a healthy scratch yet for another season.

The game plan? A few more rounds of chemotherapy (R-ICE) followed by a biopsy to see where I stand (yes, I get to be drilled again!) and then, transplant. I am not exactly sure what type of transplant, but I’m sure we will talk more in details as it comes time.

Once again, a mini-pitchfork road for me to cross.

On that note, I want to thank all those who have been so patient, so kind and above all, willing participants in this journey of ours. Without you, it would be a futile battle. I thank thee from the bottom of my heart.

Life Happens…

Then, you are told the magic word, ‘Remission.’

Ladies & Gents out there, I am still here.  As Ferris Bueller once said, ‘Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.’

Yep, I almost missed it. But Cancer came and paid me a visit. And now, the job’s done.

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I have been spending a bit more time with the family and just remembering the day-to-day things I had missed while ill. It was also a chance for me to have some clarity. This will explain partially why I was MIA from blogging since June.

The other part came from what I now call as my botched procedure (TBL: to be linked). Additionally, the chemotherapy regiment was starting to take a physical toll on my body while maintaining whatever motherly duties I was afforded the pleasure of doing. By the time it was all said and done, another round of spinal chemo, the remainder of my treatment, and it became August.

While Cancer put me in a medical hiatus, Life never stopped. Our 1st grader is now in 2nd grade. Our younger one is over 1 and thinks everything is Mt. Everest to conquer. As I mentioned earlier, a bit more clarity came out of this little detour (quite the detour, I might say) and I am now more determine to see some of these ideas become reality.

I may be in remission but the real journey starts now.


Back logged on blog entries. Been busy in and out of hospitals, consciousness and pain. Three weeks of silence makes it only worrisome or dandy as daisies. It was both. Then sudden derailment, but we are going to get through this. As Gloria Gaynor belts out (as all karaokeans sings along), “I will survive!”  [Cue strings section]